This week a New Jersey transgender woman, finally convinced Aetna to cover her mammogram after two years of rejections. I saw someone post that this sense of gender identity being separate from sex has only been with us for 40 years.
Here I must disagree with them. Magnus Hirschfeld
encountered transgender people who knew their gender identity was
separate from their physical sex and could not change how they felt. The
Nazi's destroyed his offices, burning them to the ground, and added his
patients to their list of undesirables. It was not just jews who were
sent to concentration camps.
Before Hirschfield, at the turn of the last century, some the world's
first sociologists visited the Zuni tribe to discover that 1 in 300
people lived in the gender role not consistent with their anatomy, a
rate that is fairly universally consistent even today. Our budding
nation pretty much wiped the Zuni out.
The Zuni were not the only Native Americans who had trans people
living in their midst. The early explorers from Europe found them
honored in the tribes under such appellations as the Berdache. The
Spanish found their existence against their religion and proceeded to
wipe them out, mutilating them before exterminating them. The whole
Native American culture was almost completely exterminated and the
remainder forced to live under other people's religions. Those who have
returned to the old ways, recognize the two-spirit among them and honor
them today.
There were Indo-European priestesses who drank the urine of pregnant mares in order to feel more at home in their own bodies.
It's only in the last 40 years that the rate of massacre has dropped off to allow some trans people to live.
Science is showing, and has shown that trans-identified people have a
different brain structure than cis-identified people; in fact, their
brain aligns more with the gender they claim to be than otherwise. The
impact on the brain is that the neural circuity at birth is pre-wired to
develop as the gender that does not reflect the genitals they carry. In
addition, until hormone treatment is started, the presence of
testosterone on a female mind and the presence of estrogen on a male
mind cause severe emotional crises, from chronic anxiety to chronic
depression. Hormone treatment actually make the person more productive
in society. And because estrogen develops breast tissue, those who are
on it will grow breasts, which will need care.
We are complex organisms. Even the the birth process is complex. A
strange phenotype or external hormones added; a genetic failure or
mutation; there are literally hundreds, if not thousands of ways that a
child can be born intersex; and if the hormone levels are not right or a
testicle doesn't work, or a gland doesn't work, or the hormone
receptors don't work; you wind up with someone who's brain structure
doesn't match the body they're born in.
I ought to know. I am an undiagnosed intersex woman. In 1974, the
military doctors sent me to a specialist to correct a dilated urinary
bladder and perform a minor hypospadias repair. I also had an
undescended testicle that would cause me severe abdominal pain on an
almost monthly basis before making its appearance each and every month. I
also had signs that I had some form of endometrial tissue at that age,
and through the rest of my life, even though I didn't understand the
implications.
I felt wrong in my body, and I knew from a tender age that I expected
female genitalia. I also had difficulty hanging with boys and felt
absolutely comfortable with the girls. Because I had no idea on how to
get help, I lived under the testosterone-induced chronic anxiety until I
was in my early 40s and had a wife and two children, both girls. What I
saw as the problem would not go away.
I started counseling and, seeing no other way to inner peace, began a
trial with hormone therapy. While I lost my family as a result, it
quite literally saved my life. The anxiety had gone on for so long that I
was quite suicidal.
Everything gradually improved in my life as I embraced who I was
instead of fighting it. Eventually I had surgery, and thinking that it
might be covered, I filed a claim. At that point, practically all my
care was denied, even the exploration into my intersex condition to
verify it was not cancerous. Eventually, during the appeal process,
everything but the surgery itself was covered.
Until yesterday, when I received an explanation of benefits that my
mammogram, the mammogram that the insurance company themselves called me
to take, was denied. So it is very obvious that if I had kept quiet
about my surgery, my mammogram would have been covered. Instead, they
seek to punish me, and like Ms. Scott, I am going to fight them every
step of the way for such prejudicial treatment.
Another person writes that doctors can't create women, that transwomen are brainwashed into surgery and that they regret being mutilated by them, because this person listened to a group of women supposedly put together on the Howard Stern Show.
If you believe that, I recommend that you look up the WPATH Standards of Care. Also
section 802 of DSM IV. While you're at it, check out True Selves by
Midred Brown, et al. You don't want to base your knowledge on an interview on
the Howard Stern show. Surely you know that he self-identifies as a
shock-jock.
I had to get several letters of approval before I had surgery, and it
took me four years. The first letter was for hormone treatment. Even
though I was diagnosed in 6 weeks with gender identity disorder, it took
me a year before I started HRT. Why? Because, we wanted to exhaust
other alternatives, like living as a cross-dresser, because I was
married. The second and third letters came from my next therapist, and
endocrinologist, who concurred that I had been on hormone treatment for
two years and indeed, would benefit from the surgery. I had had to
change therapists, because I moved to another state, thanks to losing my
job in a round of layoffs. I had been living full-time outside of work
for 6 months and full-time female for 4 months before I had that letter.
It was three years since I walked into the counselor, with me driving
my own transition. My early counselor had only provided the resources
and the pros and cons of the choices I could make. No one tried to
convince me to get surgery. Once I was comfortable with who I was, I
didn't need them to.
It cost me 16,000 dollars to have surgery in Thailand with a
world-renowned surgeon and there was a 10 month waiting list. This
doctor requires 2 years of hormone treatment and 1 year of living as
full-time female before he would operate. I had to get another letter
from my endocrinologist for the gender marker on my passport, and when I
got to Thailand, I was given another psychological evaluation before
the would operate. That was almost exactly a year ago. I don't consider
myself mutilated, nor do the people I met in Thailand that I keep in
touch with or any of the post-op women that I have met in Fort Worth,
Dallas, Louisville, Lexington or Salt Lake City.
For a sample like Howard Stern put together, it was obviously not
drawn at random, and can therefore not be used to infer a statistical
rule. There are a lot of substandard doctors out there, and many
transwomen cannot afford one that's worth his salt, thanks to insurance
not covering and people not employing. Those women I do know that have
some complaint don't regret having the surgery, they regret having the
wrong surgeon do it. They are still happier as women than they have ever
been as men.
Hugs and Blessings,
Sofia
Hope to see you at the Utah Rennaissance Faire and Festival on the 19th. I'm unveiling a new solo with veils and zils.
